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I feel like I have no purpose anymore. I had severe depression\suicidal thoughts last year and I feel like it’s coming back a little. I’ve been going to therapy for a year and my therapist is awesome but I don’t wanna keep going on anymore. Life is just getting harder for me and I feel like every morning I wake up is another morning I’m dragging my life on and I’m constantly pretending to be happy. I don’t play any sports so I’m basically bored as heck most of the time and I have what seems like so much drama going on. My best friend hates me and we weren’t the ones in a fight, it was her mom and my mom and my mom keeps saying “if they wanna keep being angry, they can but we have to move on, and if you and (BFF’s name) have a true friendship, she will put this past her. Im afraid she won’t tho and it’s gonna kill me if she doesn’t because we’ve been BFF’s for almost 5 years and I don’t wanna let all of that go…and to make it worse she’s in my ward so I see her at church and at mutual and I’m afraid if she doesn’t let this go, I’ll have to hold back tears every time I see her. I feel COMPLETELY hopeless.
It sounds like you are dealing with a lot of stressors right now, and I’m concerned about the feelings of hopelessness and lack of purpose you shared in your letter. On top of that, feeling isolated and alone can make what you are experiencing worse. When you are struggling with feelings of hopelessness, despair, and depression it is helpful to get as much support as possible.
Building your inner strength and resilience as well as increasing your outside support system are both important steps to help you get healthier. It sounds like you have a good therapist and your family may already be aware that you are struggling, but I’d also like for you to consider stopping in to the school counseling office.
The school counselors can be a great resource when you’re here at school. They can help you learn about and implement healthy skills, offer an extra level of support, and/or help you build your inner and outer resources. Stop by and visit with one of them anytime.
1/26/2023 10:59:29 am
I feel so bad.
2/21/2023 11:01:57 am
im so sorry you fell that way
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