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Every so often, I have a random panic attack at night when everyone else is sleeping. I start hyperventilating and freaking out. I don't go upstairs because I don't want to make anyone else upset. I don't know why this is happening, but I just needed to tell someone what I'm going through alone.
Dear Panic Attack,
I'm so sorry you are going through this. It must be so frightening. There is a rule that I live by that I think applies really well in this case: Never keep dangerous secrets. Having a panic attack is not something to be ashamed about. It's very kind to not want to make anyone else upset, but in this case, you should. The people that care about you only want you to be safe and happy. When this is happening, you are neither. Please tell them. Let them know what is happening so they can help you to get to the right help. These attacks could be triggered by many things, and figuring that out could lead to fixing it. Either way, you shouldn't go through this alone. Allow those people that love you to love you. Good luck, and please, say something.