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I'm feeling alone and hated; I'm not sure what I can do about it. I try to act differently, but it doesn't work. People see me for the mistakes I've made and not for the person I'm trying to be... What can I do?
Dear Just a Person,
If people are seeing you for who you used to be and not who you are now, maybe you need to think about your past decisions and how they may have hurt other people. If your past decisions did hurt other people, the best course of action would be to apologize to the person/groups of people. In the end, if they still don't accept your apology, you may just have to accept that.
The important thing is that you are trying to be a better person than you have been in the past. That makes you a good person! Sometimes, people aren't willing to let us change, but the choice is really ours. If you are truly changing for the better, time will help people to see that. Try to be understanding in the meantime. After all, that's what you are asking for as well, isn't it--a little understanding? Keep your chin up and accept that our past can make it hard sometimes. All that matters is what we do with the present and the future.